In Japanese we have the word "suteki". Nowadays we usually use it to say "cool" or "nice", but the word is said to have many origins. One possible interpretation refers to the quality of being able to remain natural even in the face of an enemy. someone who can do that is supremely confident and strong.
I thought perhaps I was the uptight one.
that I was the zit on the nose,
the annoying little twit that needed so be slapped occasionally because I generally treated everything with disdainful facetiousness.
Standing firm but vulnerable, cracking from the inside.
These feet now have passed the test with aplomb, but hands dripping with blood from cracked fingernails and torn flesh.